A Conversation with My Father

 


God I’m not delusional right?

Who and Where I want to be

Seem a lifetime away 


How am I going to cover focused ground 

In this life you’ve given me ?

I know you ask me not to worry 

But sometimes I forget not to 


I magnify the how, when and what 

I revel in my worry 

Swim in my tears 

Drown in my sadness


There’s just so much to do 

And it seems very little time is left between me trying to figure things out and actually doing it 

A lot of times, I’m unraveling 


 I know for a fact the possibilities are endless with you 

Hence my greatest fear is being less than I can be with you 

I just can’t be anything less than I can be with you 


Help me to be continually yielded 

For pruning and growing 

For waiting and trusting 

And when it seems like I’ve come to the end of myself 

Let your strength course through me to displace every weakness 


And Lord please 

Let your peace be my covering.


Ifedolapo

Comments

  1. JKMay 25, 2024 at 11:09 AM

    You've captured what bothers me. The dream still seems so far away and I sometimes wonder if it'll come. I'll let this piece be my prayer for this week. I love the last two lines... "And Lord please, let your peace be my covering" Amen.

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  2. TestimonyMay 25, 2024 at 2:55 PM

    Amen

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  3. FaithMay 25, 2024 at 3:35 PM

    This captures a lot of feelings I've felt this past week. Thank you, Dolapo.

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  4. Debola🦋💋May 25, 2024 at 7:11 PM

    I loveeee!🥹
    Honest and everything 💛

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  5. Debola🦋💋May 25, 2024 at 7:11 PM

    I loveeee!🥹
    Honest and everything 💛

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  6. AnonymousMay 26, 2024 at 7:56 AM

    Amen 🙏🏻

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  7. Just don't knowMay 28, 2024 at 1:10 PM

    When I read this, it got to me. It made me think about what I want. It's like what I want is right there, but also feels so far away, you know? As car side mirrors say, objects in the mirror appear CLOSER than you think." But now replace with FARTHER

    So thank you for this, going to come back to this later

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