Dear Dad II

 

Dear Dad, 

It’s been about 4yrs since my first entry to you. 

(click to read Daddy's Girl)

In that span,

We’ve climbed many hills 

Walked many valleys 

And crossed many rivers 

But God has been good! 

Also, I’ve gotten many answers 

To the questions I had. 

Time has really afforded me many realizations, 

And perspectives that I wouldn’t have seen 

At the time of my first entry in 2022. 

For instance, 

I’m no longer afraid. 

Afraid, that I’ll stop being your little girl. 

Because now I know, 

No matter the age, place or situation 

I’ll always be my daddy’s child-your child. 

I don't think I'll need you to bear shields up

on my behalf because 

I’m learning the art of war-

The art of swords and shields.

And the importance of peace

So that I’m not easily moved or shaken 

By people, things or situations.

About fear being my companion,

I understand much clearer  

That God HASN’T given me the Spirit of fear.  

So fear can never be my greatest companion. 

I don’t have it, so I can’t dwell in it. 

 

I’m also learning and understanding by the Word 

How to be joyful in spite and regardless of

The many troubles in the different shapes of people

or form of situations

Because, indeed, I’ve the Spirit of love

And a sound mind. 

So I am always capable of joy

Because it is my inherent disposition.

The thing about potential,

I had it all wrong then.

It is not about how many bowls of water

I can fetch into the buckets of my life

In terms of laudable feats in different areas

Or the admiration and acceptance of people.

Rather, it's first about what God will have me be or do.

So I’m also learning to find God’s will, 

To follow and fulfill it 

Knowing I was created by God at His pleasure

And for His purpose ALONE.

And the fulfillment of my greatest potential is in it. 

This has me learning about trust 

in a different dimension,

And how to be still, the quality of being at rest

The continuous action of total surrender

But that, hasn’t been without many tears and struggles. 

Still, I’m getting there. 

It’s been a lot of learning 

Still, I don’t see the end of the curve anytime soon 

But that’s okay 

Because that’s what becoming is.

As for love, I’ll talk about it in time- 

In another entry. 

Your love and wealth, 

Ifedolapo