Life With Dolapo

Is it until we face death we understand The value of the life we have The joys of the life we have lived  And the endless possibilities of the life ahead? Oh, may I not live a life such passively That I need a daunting check from life To come to such understanding. May I have the courage to grab life by the neck May I equally have the strength to cut for it some beautiful fabric That my being might not just be known for its existence but for its diverse colors and patterns. Oh may I have  the wisdom to join the different parts at the right time That at every season of my life I’ll be clothed appropriately. Perhaps my needle pricks  And as pain demands to be felt May courage avail to press on Or maybe my scissors, blunt Or a cut made wrong May persistence and optimism be my best friend Finally, may I be able to show what such beautiful dress I’ve clothed myself with at the end of the day May it also inspire someone to live beautifully and boldly as much as it brings me joy.             

I realized for the longest time, I’ve unknowingly dreaded being alone, or doing anything alone. That’s a confession I’ve not said out loud; outside the privacy of my mind/head😅. But here I am seated at a dinner party without anyone I can considerably call my friend. Not like I’m anti-people😂😂 I love people but at this event my friends are busy running the party😉 and my other friends are somewhere else😫 I was to sing at this dinner party so I had to be there, I couldn't just pick up my bag and run away😂. After my last performance which I would rate 40 out of 100 due to a lot of reasons I am not going to go into today, the fear of doing even worse at this event was almost crippling. Meanwhile this is something I have practiced for every single day! I think the fear of doing it alone, being alone or been the first to do stuff or even asking questions has been some of the several reasons this year has been the toughest for me so far because all the things I considered impossibl